Yeah, I'll tell you something I think you'll understand

soooooo i havent writen in a while... I've been spending a ton of time stressed out about school, homework, money, and life in general, but I'm sure I'll work it out. I got casted as the dormouse in alice in wonderland. I've spent some time with Gabe and a few of my other friends, when I can find the time between math tests, english papers, psych studying, rehearsal, and journalism readings. My aunt had a baby boy on February 12 at 9:41am his name is Hamilton Cross Meadows. Hes a cute little fuzzy headed kid. I plan on applying to UC Berkley in november and if accepted will be transfering in fall of 09. I'm really excited about it, and I have a lot of stuff to do before I go. I'll be 18 in december of this year. I'm kind of excited about that. It's like my life is finally moving forward... i can finally see where I'm going. I saw Across the Universe yesterday. Amazing movie. I loved it. The beatles were amazing song writers and this movie put their music and a story together beautifully.
well thats all for now. <3

Will you be the savior of the broken?

sooooo I have started my first few weeks of school. its been pretty hectic, but i work well in chaos. mondays and wednesdays i have english literature, intermediate algebra, general principles of psychology, and wome's ensamble. on tuesday I have race and gender in the media and choir, and thrusday just race and gender in the media. Today I auditioned for my school's children's theater production of Alice in Wonderland. I am the door mouse. :] Its been two years since i've been in a play, and I'm very excited about this whole thing. If you have seen the Alice in Wonderland movie, i am the little mouse in the teacup with the mad hatter and the hare at the tea party. Classes are going well. everything is lovely. I'm really happy with how things are going.

It don't make any difference to me what the world thinks about us, Baby

So I had a good weekend. Friday night Gabe and I went to our friend's house and watched Down periscope and tremors 3. Saturday had a garage sale. Gabe came and was a huuuuge help. Then we met up with the same friends and went to go see Cloverfield. That movie freaked me out a little. Then we went wondering through the mall, saw a few kids get arrested, and found a dead guy. Kind of weird... But not as bad as you would think. It was more like, "Hey, Keith, does he look dead to you?" "Yeah, he's looking a bit pale." *watches mall security kick him in the gut a few times* "Yup He's dead, Why are they kicking him, why don't they feel for a pulse or something? don't kick the man!" "Hey, babe, police are coming, and we didn't see anything except the dead guy, so lets go." "Kay." *walk away to get coffee* lol.
ummmm then Yesterday Gabe, my grandfather, and I went to my school to see a playwrights festival thing. Most of the shows were pretty good.
so as you can see I spent basically my whole entire weekend with Gabe... I have a question to ask all of you married folks that are reading my blog. Are you ready for it? here it comes. Question: When did you know that you really really loved that other person, and when did you know that they were "the one"(or whatever you call it)? I ask this because it seems like everything new we have done since I got home has made me fall more in love with Gabe. How relaxed he is around my family (including my godmother, who has a tendancy to try to scare the buhjeeby out of my male friends), how silly he is, and how protective he is, and how even though I dont have the long hair anymore, he still looks at me like im the most beautiful thing in the world. How he's willing to do almost anything to get me to smile, how everyone likes him, how he has grown up so much in the year that ive known him. It's just like this weekend I've been slapped in the face with all of this stuff... and its just like very nice to be able to honestly say, my boyfriend is friggen amazing even if he chews on his cuticles and rarely wears any colors but black and blue. And it's kind of like.. wow.
so on that note. There's this song that I really like. It's by Kevin Michael. This is his first single. It came out in october of 07. He's produced by <3 Wyclef <3. I like this kid, heres the video:


K adios <3

Miss American Dream since I was seventeen

So I'm home after almost a full month of being with my mom and all those other loony people. It's nice to be home. Christmas with my mom and thomas and the little ones was very nice. Everyone got a present or two and thomas made some really good food. After that my trip was pretty calm, just shopping and sleeping mostly. I came home on tuesday. My grandfather and I have moved into an apartment down the street from my grandmother's house. So I've been working on my making the apartment more like home. Yesterday i went to school to do somethings and then went to the mall to hang out with Gabe. It was the first time hes seen my short hair. I was kind of self concious about my hair, because I mean, I have nothing to hide behind anymore! He looked at me the same mushy googly eyed way he always has and it made me feel a lot better about my hair, and about being gone for a month :]. I start school again next tuesday. I'm taking 18 or 21 units this semester, and I am dedicated to transferring to UC Berkely as soon as I possibly can. I am soooo ready for the semester to start. Hopefully I'll see a few more of my friends this weekend and show off my new hair, that my boyfriend says looks nice. <3

When the rain is pouring DOOOWN

So I have been in MD less than three whole days, and it took my mother all of 10 minutes, to convince me to chop all of my hair off. yea. So my hair was obcenely long, like a little past half way down my back. so my mom was like, yeah we can get you a hair cut, and I was like cool. So we go to the salon, and we see this chicks hair, and my mom is like *gasp love* and im like eh its cute, then she keeps talking about this chick and her hair, and I look at it, and im like, eh its not bad, y not? and so i get like over a foot of my hair chopped off, and formed into a shorter version of this chick's hair, hopefully it will grow out a bit and turn into her hair, but yeah... pics. I like it, I'm not sure if I want to keep it as fluffed up as she made it, but I like it

Biiiiiirthday!

So yesterday I helped gabe and his mother with her union's childrens christmas party from 10-5, then I had a choir concert at eight and got home about 10pm. I studied for the two finals I had today for a few hours, and then fell asleep. Gabe being the sweet goose he is, sent me a txt message at 12:01am on the dot to tell me happy birthday... hehe. I woke up and my grandfather gave me a card, a sweatshirt and some money. Then I went to school and did my American Popular music, final, was not bad at all. Gabe met me at school even though he had no finals today, and took me to lunch at a resturaunt down the street. I went to go take one of my history finals thati had to reschedule because of my flight, and my teacher gave me a pretty good birthday present. He gave the whole class their tests and said, If you are happy with the grade you have now, you can turn in a blue book saying "leave my grade as it is" if you would like more points, do the final. I have an a or B in both of his classes, so I just turned it in, as I will do tomorrow morning with his second class :] I'm so glad I was so serious about school this semester. Then, because I had no final, i went to the mall with Gabe and my friend London. I shopped like a crazy woman. I bought two puffy jackets, one for me, one for my aunt, a sweater for Gabe's mom, a really cute shirt about saggitariuses, and a shirt to go under that. Gabe bought me, what I like to call a spider moose, because all of its legs are together and at the front of his fat little body, very cute. Gabe also bought me the first book to my vampire novel series, which makes my collection complete. We hung out a while and talked and stuff, then came home.
I got a lot of stuff this year for my birthday I really appreciate all of it. :]
Lyna- Bare minerals starter kit
Auntie- Clothes
Mom- mall gift card & books I wanted
Gabe- Lunch, moose, book
Gparents- money and sweater
Aunt Juanita- purse
Tracey- Card
Cheetara- Dollar
Aunt Mary and Chris- Card
I think thats about it... but thank you all for your birthday wishes and such <3

But my smile still stays on....

So today I have begun to relive my obsession with Queen and Freddie Mercury's voice. This week is the last week of instruction at school and I am so happy. Next week I will be across the country, with my mom and thomas and the little babies. Last weekend I basically just hung out with Gabe a bit, friday we went to my friends, keith and angela's house to watch movies, we watched the Altered, Rocky Horror Picture Show, and Interview with a Vampire (which is a way better book than movie; if you haven't read it, definately one of the books I'd reccomend). Saturday I cleaned and did laundry and then Gabe and I went to the mall and hung out and ate Mexican food, then a few hours later we met his parents at the lightrail station and we went to go eat Japanese. This was not a good decision on my part, I don't know if it was the disgusting mix of Mexican and Japanese, or if I've caught something, but I have been feeling really badly since saturday night. Today I went to school anyways, i figure I can get through another week, and I'll feel better. So far, its not looking too good. I don't feel very well, buuuuut i did get a 97 on my history exam so that's good. :]