I won't be the one to leave this in pieces

soooooooo its 11pm and i have nothing to do really... sooooo im blogging.ummmm nothing much has happened this week. sunday night i stayed up hella late to finish my english homework, and then i have to get up at 5am the next day so that I can get to english on time, because I have to take 3 buses and the lightrail to get 4 miles down the street... its rediculous. but yes back to the story so i do all of that, get to school half an hour early, sit for a half an hour... at 7:31 the lady comes and puts a class canceled sign on the door. im like O.O i could still be in bed right now.... dang... then i came home and got all excited cuz I got to see pictures of little mr. shultz... LaShawn's son is adorable. I get way too excited about new babies. lol. Tuesday in journalism we watched Barack Obama's speech about the racial issue in the US and his pastor. It was amazing. I felt like I was actually witnessing something similar to the I have a dream speech. It definatley let me know what kind of person Obama is, and I found that I really can relate to him in lots of ways. He said a lot of things similar to what I say when I go on my random ignorant black people rants (which i feel the need to go on often, because sadly many people of our culture in my age group go around acting a fool in circumstances where they need to pull up their pants and stop playing the victim). if i had the ability to vote, I think i really would vote for Obama. I'm not sure how I feel about having to make that big of a decision for this country though... It's like a huge responsibility, and I kind of feel like, all of the candidates could be wonderful people, but even the best people make bad decisions sometimes... its like they are wonderful now, but next time a disaster like 9/11 happens, what decision will they make? And will it be the right decision? Every great empire has its down fall, I kind of feel like this is ours. I mean seriously its like all progress of becoming better in our country has come to its peak and is slowly sliding back down into oblivion. Its like Obama makes that beautiful speech barely a week ago and we are focusing on that stupidness on a vogue cover. I can't stand it. Thomas says i'm idealistic, but why can't everything be okay? why cant everyone just help each other and be peaceful and act like they have good sense and stay out of everyone else's business and not be sadistic jerks? Wouldn't it make everything much easier? I dunno i think I am going to leave it at that.
I've been meaning to do this... for a while my blog titles have been lyrics and just incase ur interesred I wanted to list the titles of the songs:
"I wont be the one to leave this in pieces"- In Pieces by Linkin Park
"So darken your clothes and strike a violent pose maybe theyll leave you alone but not me"- Teenagers by My Chemical Romance
"When your a Jet your a Jet all the way"- Jet Song from West Side Story
"Yeah Ill tell you something I think youll understand"- I wanna hold your hand by The Beatles
"Will you be the savior of the broken"-The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance
"It don't make any difference to me what the world thinks about us baby"- It Dont Make Any Difference by Kevin Michael
"I'm Ms. American dream since i was seventeen"-Piece of Me by Britney Spears
"When the rain is pouring dooooown"- No One by Alicia Keys
"But my smile still stays on"- The Show Must Go On by Queen
"Lets do the time warp agaaaaain!"- Time Warp from Rocky Horror Picture Show

from now on I will be putting the song title and performer at the end of my posts so i don't have to make a list like this :] all of those songs good songs if you are ever looking for new music :] peace out folks

So Darken your clothes and strike a violent pose, maybe they'll leave you alone but not me

Soooooo Spring break...I have done a lot of nothing, yet it seems that I have been quite productive. I have turned in six applications for different student assitant positions with various departments of the state government. And i have decided where I want to go with my career. I would really like to do public relations. It makes good money, the position is always in demand, its working wiht the media, its a little bit of writing, and I can easily have a semi-large family with out major complications with my job. I think its pretty perfect. So the moving out date is getting pushed back due to parental interference. I really want this to be a happy supportive family type of step for me so I'm waiting until they are ready to be supportive. I would most likely be moving in with Gabe. Thomas is opposed to it, but my mother and my grandfather seem to have very few issues with it. Thomas has this thing where he feels my virtue needs to be protected, which is nice and all, but its like wow I'm not used to that. My mother has been arguing with the christian group that comes for bible study on fridays. She apparently was upset that out of 12 part series 2 parts are spent on explaining whats wrong with evolution. She said she doesnt want to be the stuck up creationalist gay bashing christian that gives people the impression that christians are crazy. She said all god wanted was for people to believe in him and be the best they can be. I am very proud of her.. she sounds like me hahaha. well today I went to the mall with my little cousin, Kenneth and his god brother, Savion. We went to go see Horton Hears a Who which was okay, not all that everyone said it was. I have some advice for you... never take an eleven and a seven year old boy to the mall and walk around for two hours... you will end up really really annoyed. tomorrow I'm going to the mall again only with my friends. I have some homework I need to do but I'll get to it before monday I think. sooo yeah i think thats all for now folks.

When your a Jet you're a Jet all the way

Sooooo its been about a month since I have written anything on here. I'm not suuuuure where to start... I have been going crazy with my schedule which has been very repetative lately.... alice rehearsal choir rehearsal homework ensamble rehearsal alice rehearsal homework class class class alice rehearsal ensamble rehearsal... lol you get my point. I have also been job searching and writing for writing contests and filling out scholarship stuff. I'm going all out on a money search.
My boyfriend and I are contemplating moving into this cool apartment complex that is a college living setting. It costs like $610 a month and you have your own bedroom and bathroom, but share a living room kitchen and laundry room with one other person. Our friends live there already, so we know who we would be sharing with and we are going to go look at the place tomorrow between my alice in wonderland show (second week open) and my choir/ensamble show.
I have been getting irratated wiht some of my teachers lately... they seem to expect me to want to stay over the alotted class time, just because they think their class is more important thatn any of my other classes and that I have nothing better to do than hear them repeat what the assignment is for the fourth time in an hour and a half. its rediculous. I feel like i'm considerate of your time by not disrupting your class, be considerate of my time, by letting me go on time. many of my classes are literally 10 minutes apart, I can't miss the beginning of one class because the teacher before that one feels that college students cant read the board and figure out their assignment. JEEEEESH! well yes... I know I'm being a bit anal but if you take up my day from 7am-1pm and then expect me to stay through half of my 30 minute break which is my only chance to eat till 5.... expect me to be a bit frustrated.
Well I have to go get ready for my choir/ensamble concert... i need some hair cye desperatley.... also a shower... well hopefully in a few weeks ill have more time to blog and i will be less frustrated.
<3

Yeah, I'll tell you something I think you'll understand

soooooo i havent writen in a while... I've been spending a ton of time stressed out about school, homework, money, and life in general, but I'm sure I'll work it out. I got casted as the dormouse in alice in wonderland. I've spent some time with Gabe and a few of my other friends, when I can find the time between math tests, english papers, psych studying, rehearsal, and journalism readings. My aunt had a baby boy on February 12 at 9:41am his name is Hamilton Cross Meadows. Hes a cute little fuzzy headed kid. I plan on applying to UC Berkley in november and if accepted will be transfering in fall of 09. I'm really excited about it, and I have a lot of stuff to do before I go. I'll be 18 in december of this year. I'm kind of excited about that. It's like my life is finally moving forward... i can finally see where I'm going. I saw Across the Universe yesterday. Amazing movie. I loved it. The beatles were amazing song writers and this movie put their music and a story together beautifully.
well thats all for now. <3

Will you be the savior of the broken?

sooooo I have started my first few weeks of school. its been pretty hectic, but i work well in chaos. mondays and wednesdays i have english literature, intermediate algebra, general principles of psychology, and wome's ensamble. on tuesday I have race and gender in the media and choir, and thrusday just race and gender in the media. Today I auditioned for my school's children's theater production of Alice in Wonderland. I am the door mouse. :] Its been two years since i've been in a play, and I'm very excited about this whole thing. If you have seen the Alice in Wonderland movie, i am the little mouse in the teacup with the mad hatter and the hare at the tea party. Classes are going well. everything is lovely. I'm really happy with how things are going.

It don't make any difference to me what the world thinks about us, Baby

So I had a good weekend. Friday night Gabe and I went to our friend's house and watched Down periscope and tremors 3. Saturday had a garage sale. Gabe came and was a huuuuge help. Then we met up with the same friends and went to go see Cloverfield. That movie freaked me out a little. Then we went wondering through the mall, saw a few kids get arrested, and found a dead guy. Kind of weird... But not as bad as you would think. It was more like, "Hey, Keith, does he look dead to you?" "Yeah, he's looking a bit pale." *watches mall security kick him in the gut a few times* "Yup He's dead, Why are they kicking him, why don't they feel for a pulse or something? don't kick the man!" "Hey, babe, police are coming, and we didn't see anything except the dead guy, so lets go." "Kay." *walk away to get coffee* lol.
ummmm then Yesterday Gabe, my grandfather, and I went to my school to see a playwrights festival thing. Most of the shows were pretty good.
so as you can see I spent basically my whole entire weekend with Gabe... I have a question to ask all of you married folks that are reading my blog. Are you ready for it? here it comes. Question: When did you know that you really really loved that other person, and when did you know that they were "the one"(or whatever you call it)? I ask this because it seems like everything new we have done since I got home has made me fall more in love with Gabe. How relaxed he is around my family (including my godmother, who has a tendancy to try to scare the buhjeeby out of my male friends), how silly he is, and how protective he is, and how even though I dont have the long hair anymore, he still looks at me like im the most beautiful thing in the world. How he's willing to do almost anything to get me to smile, how everyone likes him, how he has grown up so much in the year that ive known him. It's just like this weekend I've been slapped in the face with all of this stuff... and its just like very nice to be able to honestly say, my boyfriend is friggen amazing even if he chews on his cuticles and rarely wears any colors but black and blue. And it's kind of like.. wow.
so on that note. There's this song that I really like. It's by Kevin Michael. This is his first single. It came out in october of 07. He's produced by <3 Wyclef <3. I like this kid, heres the video:


K adios <3

Miss American Dream since I was seventeen

So I'm home after almost a full month of being with my mom and all those other loony people. It's nice to be home. Christmas with my mom and thomas and the little ones was very nice. Everyone got a present or two and thomas made some really good food. After that my trip was pretty calm, just shopping and sleeping mostly. I came home on tuesday. My grandfather and I have moved into an apartment down the street from my grandmother's house. So I've been working on my making the apartment more like home. Yesterday i went to school to do somethings and then went to the mall to hang out with Gabe. It was the first time hes seen my short hair. I was kind of self concious about my hair, because I mean, I have nothing to hide behind anymore! He looked at me the same mushy googly eyed way he always has and it made me feel a lot better about my hair, and about being gone for a month :]. I start school again next tuesday. I'm taking 18 or 21 units this semester, and I am dedicated to transferring to UC Berkely as soon as I possibly can. I am soooo ready for the semester to start. Hopefully I'll see a few more of my friends this weekend and show off my new hair, that my boyfriend says looks nice. <3