For LaShawn. lol

5 t.v. shows i love to watch
1. Nancy Grace.
2. Chowder
3. Any of VH1's reality shows
4. Secret lives of real women
5. Paranormal State

5 things that happened today
1. I woke up
2. I watched tv
3. I woke up again
4. I IMed Gabe
5. My friend went to the hospital she should be having little Zachary Chaney today :].

5 favorite places to eat
1. Weinerschnitzle!
2. taco bell
3. chipotle
4. any mexican food
5. almost any indian food


5 things i look forward to
1. all this stuff being over
2. getting my peircings and tat
3. getting paid
4. moving out
5. turning 18

5 things on my wish list
1. Sidekick
2. Apple laptop
3. new camera
4. a really good paying job
5. a ring perhaps?

5 people i tag
1. erm... iono
2. mom
3. thomas
4. i ono
5. i ono

I will never grow up; Make believe is much too fun.

Soooo i haven't posted anything on here like all summer... Not much has happened this summer. I took 3 classes. I got an A in my Political Science class, and A in my Anthropology class, and a B in my Statistics class. I'm not very happy about the B but whatever.
I got a job at school that I will start probably on the 25th. I'll be taking notes for students with disabilities. My schedule for classes this semester is all tuesday thursday classes, so I will probably work and do a show on mondays wednesdays and maybe fridays. This semester I'm taking Mass media, Social Dance, Physical Geography (and the lab bleh), and Sociology. And thats all for community college. I'm turning 18, I'm getting my AA. I'm moving out. All of that in a few months... Scares the buhjeeby out of me, but I'm also really excited.
On Wednesday, Gabe and I are flying out to see my mom... He's never met anybody over there, so I'm nervous and excited. Thursday is his birthday, he'll be 19 :]. He's made a lot of good changes since we first met. I'm really proud of him. He always works really hard. The ticket was his birthday present from me. We will be there for a week, and we are going down to DC up to New York, and all over the place. It's his first time past Texas and on a trip with out his parents, so we are gunna try and have as much fun as possible. lol. We'll see how this goes.

Oh Darlin! Please believe me. I'd never do you no harm.

Sooooo not much goin on, I'm done with this semester I'm in Bel Air visiting my mom and all is well. I'm kinda bored so I'm doing LaShawn's blog thingy.

10 years ago:
I was 7 years old, just getting out of second grade at St. Anne's Catholic School in Sacramento,CA. I don't really remember much else, except on dec 28th of that year my mother and I moved to St.Croix.

8 years ago:
I was 9 years old and going to St. Mary's Catholic School in St. Croix. I was in 4th grade. My teacher was Ms. Steele. She got pregnant in the middle of the school year and she had her nose pierced. I thought that was pretty cool. One thing I distinctly remember is her taking us out into the courtyard and having us look up and see if we could name the type of clouds we saw. At that point I had a huge crush on this 6th grader named Jean Pierre. He was from Canada, and his mom was the lunch lady at school he had an older brother in 8th grade whose name I can't remember but it was uber French too. J.P. (thats what we called him) was one of my best friends, and he introduced me to N'sync. For the talent show that year J.P., my friend Lauren Bigsbee, and I lipsynced and created a dance routine to the N'sync song "Bye, Bye, Bye". I also dressed up and sang "Don't Cry For Me Argentina" from Evita. Bobby came to watch me in the talent show and won a raffle. my mom was at home sick because she got food poisoning from KFC. (In St. Croix you have two fast food options KFC or McDonalds both were toxic to health beyond normal). After that school year, my mom and Bobby that we should move and we moved to Wilmington, NC.

5 years ago:
I was 12, and went to St. Mary's Catholic School in Wilmington, NC. I was in 7th grade. Lauren McAree and Andrew Marhefka were (and still are) my best friends. That school year I got my first C on a report card ever. It was in math, pre-algebra. That sucked. at the end of that school year, my mom and I moved to Durham and Bobby moved to Delaware. Lauren moved to MD. Andrew stayed in wilmington. That year I started 8th grade. It was the first year I ever went to public school. It was Brogden Middle School. It was there that I got my first real boyfriend. His name was Edgar Hernandez. We "dated" for a whole entire full 2 weeks (ha!) He was my first kiss. It was gross, I was in shock, it was totally unexpected. I was walking out of school because I had after school tutoring (for algebra one go figure)and he caught me as I was in the front hallway and kissed me. I think I threw up a little. lol. After him I had many other boyfriends because it was the first time I'd had any type of male attention. 8th grade was over all pretty awesome, except for edgar *gag*.

8 Things I'm Passionate About:
1. Love (...is such a splendid thing, love, lift us up where you belong. all you need is love)
2. Life
3. Music
4. Theater
5. Literature
6. Art
7. Individuality
8. Beauty

8 Books I Have Read and Enjoyed (in the past 6 months):
1. Twilight
2. New Moon
3. Eclipse
4. The lust lizard of melancholy cove
5. Sharp teeth
6. Coyote Blue
7. Queen of the Damned (for the 7th time >.<)
8. The door to december

8 Things I Often Say:
1. cool beans.
2. oh ok
3. DRUGS (dramatic pause) are bad, mmmk?
4. psh
5. i miss my gabey *pouts*
6. Treacle!
7. Hey call the scientists! the dinosaurs aren't extinct! there goes a dorkasaurus right there!
8. You're a shish. (shish: evelyn language for fish)

8 Things I Want to Do Before I Die (not in order of importance):
1. Star in a broadway production
2. publish a novel
3. write a play and have it professionally produced
4. get two half sleeves in color completed (tatoos for those who don't speak cool)
5. teach a theater class at Yale
6. Get married
7. have 4-6 children
8. Save the world

8 Things I Have Learned (or remembered, again) This Past Year:
1. that love is more important than most people realize
2. that its ok to be me and be honest with people about who i am
3. that God and religion are two completely different things; and that most of the time people have one with out the other. I can love and believe in God with out being forced into other people's ideals
4. I'm strong enough to break the cycle
5. I adore children
6. I love school and learning
7. My mom is my hero
8. the beatles are awesomely awesome

5 snacks i enjoy: (in no particular order)
1. apple sauce
2. Naked Blue Machine/Green Machine (its super food. that brazillian berry stuff that LaShawn was selling for a while is amazingly tastey. Tastes like a jolly rancher, but its good for you, no seriously it is)
3. crossaints
4. special k cereal bars
5. yogurt with granola

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. stop being annoyed at Gabe
2. go shopping
3. make green pies
4. call brittney
5. buy Gabe's ticket

5 things i would do if i were a billionaire:
1. buy a house
2. start a huge college fund for Ev and Si
3. save for a wedding
4. start a theater program that goes around to schools and does a realistic performance to make students aware of the effects of drugs/alcohol/promiscuity
5. buy one of those skinny mac laptops the tiny one its awesome

5 jobs that i have had:
1. babysitter
2. cat sitter
3. video store clerk
4. --
5. once my grandma gave me 200 bucks to paint over all the walls and stain the deck in her rental house

5 bad habits of mine:
1. procrastinating
2. wanting more shoes
3. over reacting
4. not keeping my room clean
5. myspace addiction :[

5 places i have lived:
1. Sacramento, CA
2. Oakland, CA
3. St. Croix
4. Wilmington, NC
5. Durham, NC

5 people to get to know better:
1. LaShawn :]
2. Thomas
3. Buffy (girl at school i started hanging out with recently)
4. Gabey :]
5. the admissions people at UC Berkely (heh)

Alice in Wonderland pictures

I won't be the one to leave this in pieces

soooooooo its 11pm and i have nothing to do really... sooooo im blogging.ummmm nothing much has happened this week. sunday night i stayed up hella late to finish my english homework, and then i have to get up at 5am the next day so that I can get to english on time, because I have to take 3 buses and the lightrail to get 4 miles down the street... its rediculous. but yes back to the story so i do all of that, get to school half an hour early, sit for a half an hour... at 7:31 the lady comes and puts a class canceled sign on the door. im like O.O i could still be in bed right now.... dang... then i came home and got all excited cuz I got to see pictures of little mr. shultz... LaShawn's son is adorable. I get way too excited about new babies. lol. Tuesday in journalism we watched Barack Obama's speech about the racial issue in the US and his pastor. It was amazing. I felt like I was actually witnessing something similar to the I have a dream speech. It definatley let me know what kind of person Obama is, and I found that I really can relate to him in lots of ways. He said a lot of things similar to what I say when I go on my random ignorant black people rants (which i feel the need to go on often, because sadly many people of our culture in my age group go around acting a fool in circumstances where they need to pull up their pants and stop playing the victim). if i had the ability to vote, I think i really would vote for Obama. I'm not sure how I feel about having to make that big of a decision for this country though... It's like a huge responsibility, and I kind of feel like, all of the candidates could be wonderful people, but even the best people make bad decisions sometimes... its like they are wonderful now, but next time a disaster like 9/11 happens, what decision will they make? And will it be the right decision? Every great empire has its down fall, I kind of feel like this is ours. I mean seriously its like all progress of becoming better in our country has come to its peak and is slowly sliding back down into oblivion. Its like Obama makes that beautiful speech barely a week ago and we are focusing on that stupidness on a vogue cover. I can't stand it. Thomas says i'm idealistic, but why can't everything be okay? why cant everyone just help each other and be peaceful and act like they have good sense and stay out of everyone else's business and not be sadistic jerks? Wouldn't it make everything much easier? I dunno i think I am going to leave it at that.
I've been meaning to do this... for a while my blog titles have been lyrics and just incase ur interesred I wanted to list the titles of the songs:
"I wont be the one to leave this in pieces"- In Pieces by Linkin Park
"So darken your clothes and strike a violent pose maybe theyll leave you alone but not me"- Teenagers by My Chemical Romance
"When your a Jet your a Jet all the way"- Jet Song from West Side Story
"Yeah Ill tell you something I think youll understand"- I wanna hold your hand by The Beatles
"Will you be the savior of the broken"-The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance
"It don't make any difference to me what the world thinks about us baby"- It Dont Make Any Difference by Kevin Michael
"I'm Ms. American dream since i was seventeen"-Piece of Me by Britney Spears
"When the rain is pouring dooooown"- No One by Alicia Keys
"But my smile still stays on"- The Show Must Go On by Queen
"Lets do the time warp agaaaaain!"- Time Warp from Rocky Horror Picture Show

from now on I will be putting the song title and performer at the end of my posts so i don't have to make a list like this :] all of those songs good songs if you are ever looking for new music :] peace out folks

So Darken your clothes and strike a violent pose, maybe they'll leave you alone but not me

Soooooo Spring break...I have done a lot of nothing, yet it seems that I have been quite productive. I have turned in six applications for different student assitant positions with various departments of the state government. And i have decided where I want to go with my career. I would really like to do public relations. It makes good money, the position is always in demand, its working wiht the media, its a little bit of writing, and I can easily have a semi-large family with out major complications with my job. I think its pretty perfect. So the moving out date is getting pushed back due to parental interference. I really want this to be a happy supportive family type of step for me so I'm waiting until they are ready to be supportive. I would most likely be moving in with Gabe. Thomas is opposed to it, but my mother and my grandfather seem to have very few issues with it. Thomas has this thing where he feels my virtue needs to be protected, which is nice and all, but its like wow I'm not used to that. My mother has been arguing with the christian group that comes for bible study on fridays. She apparently was upset that out of 12 part series 2 parts are spent on explaining whats wrong with evolution. She said she doesnt want to be the stuck up creationalist gay bashing christian that gives people the impression that christians are crazy. She said all god wanted was for people to believe in him and be the best they can be. I am very proud of her.. she sounds like me hahaha. well today I went to the mall with my little cousin, Kenneth and his god brother, Savion. We went to go see Horton Hears a Who which was okay, not all that everyone said it was. I have some advice for you... never take an eleven and a seven year old boy to the mall and walk around for two hours... you will end up really really annoyed. tomorrow I'm going to the mall again only with my friends. I have some homework I need to do but I'll get to it before monday I think. sooo yeah i think thats all for now folks.

When your a Jet you're a Jet all the way

Sooooo its been about a month since I have written anything on here. I'm not suuuuure where to start... I have been going crazy with my schedule which has been very repetative lately.... alice rehearsal choir rehearsal homework ensamble rehearsal alice rehearsal homework class class class alice rehearsal ensamble rehearsal... lol you get my point. I have also been job searching and writing for writing contests and filling out scholarship stuff. I'm going all out on a money search.
My boyfriend and I are contemplating moving into this cool apartment complex that is a college living setting. It costs like $610 a month and you have your own bedroom and bathroom, but share a living room kitchen and laundry room with one other person. Our friends live there already, so we know who we would be sharing with and we are going to go look at the place tomorrow between my alice in wonderland show (second week open) and my choir/ensamble show.
I have been getting irratated wiht some of my teachers lately... they seem to expect me to want to stay over the alotted class time, just because they think their class is more important thatn any of my other classes and that I have nothing better to do than hear them repeat what the assignment is for the fourth time in an hour and a half. its rediculous. I feel like i'm considerate of your time by not disrupting your class, be considerate of my time, by letting me go on time. many of my classes are literally 10 minutes apart, I can't miss the beginning of one class because the teacher before that one feels that college students cant read the board and figure out their assignment. JEEEEESH! well yes... I know I'm being a bit anal but if you take up my day from 7am-1pm and then expect me to stay through half of my 30 minute break which is my only chance to eat till 5.... expect me to be a bit frustrated.
Well I have to go get ready for my choir/ensamble concert... i need some hair cye desperatley.... also a shower... well hopefully in a few weeks ill have more time to blog and i will be less frustrated.
<3

Yeah, I'll tell you something I think you'll understand

soooooo i havent writen in a while... I've been spending a ton of time stressed out about school, homework, money, and life in general, but I'm sure I'll work it out. I got casted as the dormouse in alice in wonderland. I've spent some time with Gabe and a few of my other friends, when I can find the time between math tests, english papers, psych studying, rehearsal, and journalism readings. My aunt had a baby boy on February 12 at 9:41am his name is Hamilton Cross Meadows. Hes a cute little fuzzy headed kid. I plan on applying to UC Berkley in november and if accepted will be transfering in fall of 09. I'm really excited about it, and I have a lot of stuff to do before I go. I'll be 18 in december of this year. I'm kind of excited about that. It's like my life is finally moving forward... i can finally see where I'm going. I saw Across the Universe yesterday. Amazing movie. I loved it. The beatles were amazing song writers and this movie put their music and a story together beautifully.
well thats all for now. <3

Will you be the savior of the broken?

sooooo I have started my first few weeks of school. its been pretty hectic, but i work well in chaos. mondays and wednesdays i have english literature, intermediate algebra, general principles of psychology, and wome's ensamble. on tuesday I have race and gender in the media and choir, and thrusday just race and gender in the media. Today I auditioned for my school's children's theater production of Alice in Wonderland. I am the door mouse. :] Its been two years since i've been in a play, and I'm very excited about this whole thing. If you have seen the Alice in Wonderland movie, i am the little mouse in the teacup with the mad hatter and the hare at the tea party. Classes are going well. everything is lovely. I'm really happy with how things are going.

It don't make any difference to me what the world thinks about us, Baby

So I had a good weekend. Friday night Gabe and I went to our friend's house and watched Down periscope and tremors 3. Saturday had a garage sale. Gabe came and was a huuuuge help. Then we met up with the same friends and went to go see Cloverfield. That movie freaked me out a little. Then we went wondering through the mall, saw a few kids get arrested, and found a dead guy. Kind of weird... But not as bad as you would think. It was more like, "Hey, Keith, does he look dead to you?" "Yeah, he's looking a bit pale." *watches mall security kick him in the gut a few times* "Yup He's dead, Why are they kicking him, why don't they feel for a pulse or something? don't kick the man!" "Hey, babe, police are coming, and we didn't see anything except the dead guy, so lets go." "Kay." *walk away to get coffee* lol.
ummmm then Yesterday Gabe, my grandfather, and I went to my school to see a playwrights festival thing. Most of the shows were pretty good.
so as you can see I spent basically my whole entire weekend with Gabe... I have a question to ask all of you married folks that are reading my blog. Are you ready for it? here it comes. Question: When did you know that you really really loved that other person, and when did you know that they were "the one"(or whatever you call it)? I ask this because it seems like everything new we have done since I got home has made me fall more in love with Gabe. How relaxed he is around my family (including my godmother, who has a tendancy to try to scare the buhjeeby out of my male friends), how silly he is, and how protective he is, and how even though I dont have the long hair anymore, he still looks at me like im the most beautiful thing in the world. How he's willing to do almost anything to get me to smile, how everyone likes him, how he has grown up so much in the year that ive known him. It's just like this weekend I've been slapped in the face with all of this stuff... and its just like very nice to be able to honestly say, my boyfriend is friggen amazing even if he chews on his cuticles and rarely wears any colors but black and blue. And it's kind of like.. wow.
so on that note. There's this song that I really like. It's by Kevin Michael. This is his first single. It came out in october of 07. He's produced by <3 Wyclef <3. I like this kid, heres the video:


K adios <3

Miss American Dream since I was seventeen

So I'm home after almost a full month of being with my mom and all those other loony people. It's nice to be home. Christmas with my mom and thomas and the little ones was very nice. Everyone got a present or two and thomas made some really good food. After that my trip was pretty calm, just shopping and sleeping mostly. I came home on tuesday. My grandfather and I have moved into an apartment down the street from my grandmother's house. So I've been working on my making the apartment more like home. Yesterday i went to school to do somethings and then went to the mall to hang out with Gabe. It was the first time hes seen my short hair. I was kind of self concious about my hair, because I mean, I have nothing to hide behind anymore! He looked at me the same mushy googly eyed way he always has and it made me feel a lot better about my hair, and about being gone for a month :]. I start school again next tuesday. I'm taking 18 or 21 units this semester, and I am dedicated to transferring to UC Berkely as soon as I possibly can. I am soooo ready for the semester to start. Hopefully I'll see a few more of my friends this weekend and show off my new hair, that my boyfriend says looks nice. <3

When the rain is pouring DOOOWN

So I have been in MD less than three whole days, and it took my mother all of 10 minutes, to convince me to chop all of my hair off. yea. So my hair was obcenely long, like a little past half way down my back. so my mom was like, yeah we can get you a hair cut, and I was like cool. So we go to the salon, and we see this chicks hair, and my mom is like *gasp love* and im like eh its cute, then she keeps talking about this chick and her hair, and I look at it, and im like, eh its not bad, y not? and so i get like over a foot of my hair chopped off, and formed into a shorter version of this chick's hair, hopefully it will grow out a bit and turn into her hair, but yeah... pics. I like it, I'm not sure if I want to keep it as fluffed up as she made it, but I like it

Biiiiiirthday!

So yesterday I helped gabe and his mother with her union's childrens christmas party from 10-5, then I had a choir concert at eight and got home about 10pm. I studied for the two finals I had today for a few hours, and then fell asleep. Gabe being the sweet goose he is, sent me a txt message at 12:01am on the dot to tell me happy birthday... hehe. I woke up and my grandfather gave me a card, a sweatshirt and some money. Then I went to school and did my American Popular music, final, was not bad at all. Gabe met me at school even though he had no finals today, and took me to lunch at a resturaunt down the street. I went to go take one of my history finals thati had to reschedule because of my flight, and my teacher gave me a pretty good birthday present. He gave the whole class their tests and said, If you are happy with the grade you have now, you can turn in a blue book saying "leave my grade as it is" if you would like more points, do the final. I have an a or B in both of his classes, so I just turned it in, as I will do tomorrow morning with his second class :] I'm so glad I was so serious about school this semester. Then, because I had no final, i went to the mall with Gabe and my friend London. I shopped like a crazy woman. I bought two puffy jackets, one for me, one for my aunt, a sweater for Gabe's mom, a really cute shirt about saggitariuses, and a shirt to go under that. Gabe bought me, what I like to call a spider moose, because all of its legs are together and at the front of his fat little body, very cute. Gabe also bought me the first book to my vampire novel series, which makes my collection complete. We hung out a while and talked and stuff, then came home.
I got a lot of stuff this year for my birthday I really appreciate all of it. :]
Lyna- Bare minerals starter kit
Auntie- Clothes
Mom- mall gift card & books I wanted
Gabe- Lunch, moose, book
Gparents- money and sweater
Aunt Juanita- purse
Tracey- Card
Cheetara- Dollar
Aunt Mary and Chris- Card
I think thats about it... but thank you all for your birthday wishes and such <3

But my smile still stays on....

So today I have begun to relive my obsession with Queen and Freddie Mercury's voice. This week is the last week of instruction at school and I am so happy. Next week I will be across the country, with my mom and thomas and the little babies. Last weekend I basically just hung out with Gabe a bit, friday we went to my friends, keith and angela's house to watch movies, we watched the Altered, Rocky Horror Picture Show, and Interview with a Vampire (which is a way better book than movie; if you haven't read it, definately one of the books I'd reccomend). Saturday I cleaned and did laundry and then Gabe and I went to the mall and hung out and ate Mexican food, then a few hours later we met his parents at the lightrail station and we went to go eat Japanese. This was not a good decision on my part, I don't know if it was the disgusting mix of Mexican and Japanese, or if I've caught something, but I have been feeling really badly since saturday night. Today I went to school anyways, i figure I can get through another week, and I'll feel better. So far, its not looking too good. I don't feel very well, buuuuut i did get a 97 on my history exam so that's good. :]

Thanks for making me who I am

So as I was sitting doing nothing this morning, it dawned over me that I am finally beginning to see a little bit of who I am. This is so surprising and exciting to me because ever since I started high school, I have been struggling to figure out who I am. This journey has taken me through ups, but sadly many more downs than anything else. None the less, the end result seems to be well worth all of the struggles my family and i have endured over the last 4 years. So this is just going to be me talking about what I have learned from each person that has become a part of me and thanking them for all that they've done.

I'd like to start with the four people who have been their for me since day 1 (which was December 17,1990)

My Grandma:

Although we now have so many differences now, we once were inseperable. Now I may not like to admit that we have things in common or that she has had any posative affect on my life, there really is no way to deny any of those things. This is the list of values, lessons, and such that I have learned from my Grandmother, that are now a part of me.

- Generosity: is really the major thing I have learned from my grandmother. She is always willing to give and help others. She has always been more than generous to all of us, her family, our friends, her friends, even random people in the street.

- Caution: Being a social worker, my grandmother lectured me and lectured me some more about being careful with men and never going places alone and to make sure to always be aware of my surroundings. After all of the years of lecturing, I can finally say its done me some good.

- Cleanliness: When I was younger, I would come back to Sacramento for the summers, and she would yell at me for leaving a towel on the floor, or clothes on the floor, and things such as that. Though it annoyed me at the time, I have learned that it really is a valuable thing to make basic cleanliness a habit, hanging your towel up, putting your dirty clothes in the hamper. it makes it more simple to do it when you visit other people's houses, and stops your room from smelling like mildew >.<>

My Grandpa:

One of the people who have always been on my side, always protecting me from myself and everyone else. Always pushing me to do better.

- My grandfather always encouraged me to do my best in school. he is the reason that I am in college right now

- He always trusted me even when I wasn't so trust worthy

- He encouraged my mom to give me a second chance even when i really didn't deserve one he is the reason i have so much faith in people

- He encouraged my love of music. Taught me to love the blues, jazz, and old R&B

- Has come to almost every performance, singing, acting, even if he had to come all the way across the country for one show.

- He has taught me that sometimes its best to sit back and deal with problems logically instead of emotionally.

My Mom:

My mother is one of the strongest women I know. She has given me so much more than most teenage single mothers ever give their kids. Much of the thanks goes to my grandparents, but the decision to let me continue into existance was no ones choice but my mothers, and I am so glad that she made that decision.

- She has taught me that sometimes things happen and they have nothing to do with you.

- she has taught me that love truly can be unconditional

- she has taught me that anything is possible

- that family is important

- to welcome change

- to love freedom

- to get the best out of a compromise

- to love books

- to welcome and adapt to change

- to know that every problem has a solution

- to care about people

- that you can always find a friend in a dog

- that I am not responsible for anyones happiness but my own

- That reggae music can become the beat you live to

- that intelligance is valued above beauty, but its awfully nice to have both

- that only I know whats best for me

- that its ok to go even if everyone else thinks you'll fail

- that people really can change

My Aunt:

My Aunt has always been one of my favorite people. Once again, one of the strongest women i know.

- She taught me that fun should never be underrated

- that big parties never get old

- that virgin daquiries are one of the most tastey things on earth

- that who you socialize with can either make you or break you

- that there is nothing wrong with rocking expensive jeans daily

- that staying fit should be a habit not a hardship

- that everyone needs their own personal cheerleader, who still roots for them, even when they miss the winning basket

- its okay to want a Hummer

- That clothes are even more fashionable when you make them yourself

- that sewing is a pretty cool hobby

- that when life deals you lemons, you can always cut them up and wedge them on the side of glass filled with a tastey beverage

- that you should never be afraid to ask for what you want

- that writing is one of the best ways to release both creativity and emotions

Now for the other people who have taught me a few things in my life time

Jennifer:

She has been my best friend since preschool. Every summer I would come back to California, and she would be there, and make me feel like I had never left. Like the sister I never had (well before evelyn). She has taught me a lot.

- never judge a book by its cover, two totally different people can be the best of friends

- some friendships can last forever

- never having an argument over 15 years of friendship really isn't as unhealthy as it sounds

- we can change but our friendship always stays the same

- supporting your friends in what they do is one of the major parts of a friendship

- that dancing and doing the hustle through the mall can really embarass your friends (lol)

Kenneth:

My cousin-brother is one of the coolest 11 year olds I know... even if I only know two. he's smart and funny and interesting. And he's always been my best friend when I had no one else.

- he has shown me that i am important. he looks up to me, wants to like the things I like and do the things I do. Gives me a reason to do right (now i have two more reasons to do my best)

- he has shown me that im beautiful, even when I don't feel it so much. he's always the first person to say *well taylor you look nice today* or *i like your shirt*

- he has shown me that even if im not considered cool by the people at school, i always have him to think I'm one of the coolest people ever (well, besides the dude on Jurassic park)

My Aunt Della and Uncle Race:

My Uncle Race is very sick. He can't move by himself, can't speak anymore, and needs someone to constantly take care of him. His wife, Della, stays home all day almost everyday to take care of him.

- the one thing that they have taught me, is that true love really does exist. She stays and takes care of him herself all day, because of how much she still loves him after all of these years, and when she walks in the room, even though he can't move or speak, you can see Uncle Race's eyes light up. True love exists, and it can last forever.

Bobby:

For a long time, Bobby was the closest thing I had to a father besides my grandpa. he taught me many things, that I have kept as a part of my life long after our lives went their seperate ways.

- Rock music isn't just noise, it's love it's pain it's anger it's nonsense its fun its life

- Country music can be good room cleaning music

- Photographs really are more than just pictures, they are memories

- Everything tastes better with fatback... except fatback doesn't taste very good by itself

- That the only good reason to watch cars drive around in circles for 4 hours straight is because NASCAR zooms in on the crashes.

- Never underestimate the healing powers of a good day at the arcade with cheese burgers, coke, and go karts

- Stuffed Mooses are only the best things to collect on earth

- Table ettiquette and saying thank you are very important

- Do more than the bare minimum in school

- Burger King (im sorry Kang) every morning before school takes about 3 school years to finally get old

- Sometimes its best to move on

- There is so much more to white people in trailers than what most people think

Thomas:

Even though he is one of the newest additions to my life. I have learned one major thing from the Thomas that we all know and love.

- that nothing is ever to broken to fix, you just gotta put a lot of effort into fixing it

Let's do the time warp agaaaaaaaain!!!!!!!

So the week is coming to an end and I am sitting in my room, discussing with Gabe why Spiderman is sooooooooo much better than Wolverine. Yes. Interesting. I know. I am also watching Rocky Horror Picture Show... which is only the best movie ever. I will be so glad when this semester is over. I have a few concerts this month in choir, and I will hopefully get the solo for O Holy Night.
Thanksgiving was cool. I went to breakfast with Gabe, his brother (Matt), and their parents at this place called Sheri's (basically Ihop with pies). Then we went to his house and hung around for a while, slept, watched t.v., played Halo and racing games and SoulCaliber on Matt's xbox. Then his aunt Lori, and her kids, Aaron (12-13 maybe?) and Viana (11 same age as kenneth) came over and we ate. Then more sleeping and watching rush hour and more Halo and I got picked up. It was a nice laid back day. Yesterday I went with Gabe, his mom, Lori, Aaron, and Viana to go see Enchanted. It was actually a really good movie, and I would recommened it for anyone who 1. wants to go see a movie with the family, 2. wants a good laugh, 3. finds huge purple talking dragons cool, or 4. is an old disney cartoon enthusiast... I promise you its the best thing disney has come out with in a long time :] and remember kids *its just a jump to the left and then a step to the riiiiiiiiiiiight*

Soooooooo

I haven't posted much on here latley, so I decided... back to blogging. Well not much has been happening over here, even though it seems like tons of things have been. This week I have turned in two term paper outlines and taken two history tests, that I have been trying to prepare for and get done for the last month or so. Monday morning my friend Juan got hit by a car (sounding like someone you know?) and he broke his femur (hey... u know someone like that) and his wrist. He is at the lovely UC Davis Medical Center here in Sacramento, he had surgery on his leg and has a cast on his arm. Davis is the hospital that did the surgery on my leg, and if you haven't noticed, I am very pleased with the results. I trust that they will take good care of him. So please send out your prayers to him, hope that his leg will work as well as mine, and that he will be out of the hospital and back at school soon :].
Ummmm other than that.... Saturday Gabe and I went to go see my friend Vicki in her play at my old highschool. Its a play by Steve Martin called "Picasso at Lapin Agile" its a very funny play (with no plot) about Einstein and Picasso talking at a bar in France. Vicki had a lead role, and as always she did a lovely job.
My aunt is doing well with her pregnancy. My grandfather is as excited about the semester being over as I am. Tomorrow I am spending Thanksgiving tomorrow with Gabe and his family. I will try to take pictures. Silas and Evelyn and my mom are doing pretty good and stuff. My birthday is in less than a month ;] I will be 17!!! and i will also be in Baltimore with my dear little family in less than month soooooo.. yes. Adios

Healthy

ok since I've started college, I have lost weight and then gained it back. Right now I am about 160lbs... And I'm not very happy about it. This is not like, the most I've ever weighed or anything, but I don't want to go back to being fat and unhappy. I don't wear weight badly perse... Most people can't really tell the difference between me at 145 and me at 160 unless they actually look at me, but it bothers me because I can tell. I feel like a big lump, my clothes don't fit right. I always feel like I'm rolling out af all of my clothes. So last night I decided that I am going to make exercise and eating well a habit, and less of a "eh" thing. Last night I did 250 crunches (which I plan on doing everyday) and stretched a little. This morning I got up at about 6am and went running/jogging/walking for about 2.5 miles. I plan on trying to eat less burritos...*sad i know* and more salads, due to the fact that they are at school no matter how hard I try to ignore them, and have at least one cup of yogurt a day (which i have both at home and school). Yougurt is good for your digestion and losing a maintaining healthy weight :]. so yes. I shall be skinny! one day.... or at least fit. lol

Hes aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive

The first pic of Silas with his eyes open and not wrapped up like a taquito, and actually doing something... I present Silas sucking on his pasi! He looks like his eyes are funny colored like Evelyn and Thomas's but T says that they are dark brown. mhm He's a cute little buhby.
I think I will still call him Taquito

New Pics of the two little ones

It's a Taquito in a carseat!!!! Where is his gangster hat? Who knows? Its a mystery hahahahahaaha. That boy is always sleeping. My kind of brother :]


And Evelyn eating applesauce with her daddy. Love the hair! We both take after our mother with hair that sticks up funny in the morning :]

heh i love my siblings. they are so cute. Oh yeah and my mom asked why I didn't take credit for choosing another lovely name for my siblings. Evelyn Ruth was a suggestion from me, which is my great grandmother's name backwards. Silas was also one of my suggestions (a strong suggestion), its a biblical name and pretty cool, so yes.... if you need any baby name suggestions, i tend to be pretty good at it...
My Aunt has decided to name her baby Hamilton Cross... I think its a pretty cool name, not one of my suggestions, but its just proof that cool names officially run in the babies of our family :] heh